Update!

I do understand it has been quite a while.

In short, my mani-hygeine has fallen short, and I've barely been noticing my nails at all.

In September-February we were having a fiasco. My mother left us for a man she got hooked up with on Facebook, and though the scar is healing, she can be a ***** sometimes and turn back around and cut up the sore again. Otherwise, we're managing.

I've been getting in with horses since January, but I've had a few bad experiences with one trainer so I decided to cut back and stop seeing her, and focus on buying a horse myself. Rather, I am now focused on getting a job, then a car so I can drive places, /then/ things FOR the horse, THEN the horse =]. And I'm hoping to compete. I've found something I can do with my disability, and it's inspiring.

Anyways, that's all that's up!

Sinful Colors: Frenzy

To begin, I would like to have apologies for my absence. I shall put this shortly. To begin. School. Life. My grandfather was diagnosed with leukemia and beginning last October and continuing on through here, my mother has been having an affair, left us, and still is hitting us with some words and events that only stab at the wound that is trying to heal.

Now, I had no real interest in continuing with here, in particular because nail polishes never really worked well for me. I was doing my normal girl thing, pick up some cheap nail polish. This was, two dollars maybe? I've had it on for days without any problem. Just that bottle doesn't look /that/ amazing until you put it on, and...dang. That's all I can say.

ELF Palette

I bought the new palette, the large one for my birthday. I'm just going to have a bit of a short review.

First off , the colours are great. The lips are sheer and buildable, as is the eyeshadows. The variety of colours is very acceptable. They are pigmented, although wearable, and easy to blend from what I've seen so far. The blushes and bronzers are ridiculously pigmented--to the point where it's frightening to put on. I love all the colours though, and think ELF is very good quality for the value. The concealers, eh. They are very sheer and thin, and work well for blending colour correcting, but I haven't touched those much. There are different finishes, and a wide variety...I'm very glad I bought it.

My Halloween

Oh boy, so much stuff has been going on. There have been so many family issues, school issues, etc. I went to Dallas and saw Star Wars in concert! Only on the day of Halloween did I buy my costume, so I shall treat with pics. Feel free to zoom.

This is my brother. Today's his tenth birthday. Good luck finding him, he's so well camouflaged.

Sephora Haul

Alrightyy. So, good good week. I got my haircut that I love. As well as being completely broken out now, I have experienced more and more pain, and my dosage was increased to 4x3, which is 3600 mg, the complete maximum dosage allowed for gabapentin..and since this isn't exactly working my doctor is going to switch me over to something that hopefully will work. =] And..my braces are still breaking. The stripping is gone out on one of them, and the screw popped off again today. I'm grateful I'm going to the place who makes them tomorrow, to get them redone to accomodate for the hardships on them and the growth I've had!!

So today we celebrated my birthday, a month early, by going to Sephora. We'll be going again to receive my birthday gift and I'll probably buy something else alongside it, =].


First up is a Sephora concealer. It has a cream texture. It was difficult to swatch because as it should be, the colours were decently sheer and very blendable, which made me happy.

I also brought this cheap brush cleaner, which does its duty for mee.And this adorable brush set. I've been needing good quality brushes, and these are very much so. This is a paper which describes all the brushes and what they do.
And here are the brushes themselves! They're very beautiful, and the case is adorable and pink and closes magnetically. The only problem I have is that the little flaps which cover up the brushes are a tad bit annoying and want to flip down when you wish for them to flip up.Little eyeliners were on sale for $3.50 in Sephora brand. They are very high quality and took forever to wash off... I don't, however, have a picture.Andd..dun dun dun...I bought the Urban Decay Book of Shadows Volume II!! It came with this pretty little overview of all that's inside of it.Alrighty. So the packaging is a tad bit annoying. The little tray comes out of the box which you pull, and it makes the whole thing kind of large since it stays in there! It doesn't come out. This is the eyeliner. They are very pigmented, very creamy and soft. The only issue I have is that the brown one brokee. =[ From top right to bottom left.. Misdemeanor, Homegrown, Flipside, Jinx, YDK, Midnight Cowboy Rides Again, Twice Baked,

From left to right. Perversion, Gunmetal, Ecstasy, AC/DC, Nylon, Sellout, Mushroom, Sphynx.
All of those are without the Primer Potion that is also available in the box. AC/DC, Nylon, Mushroom, Sphynx, Jinx, Homegrown, and Misdemeanor are all colours exclusive to this box. It speaks of "hidden trap doors". We'll see how that turns out..

And what is all of this without a look? Well.

This is produced with Jinx, Flipside, Homegrown, and Misdemeanor in the crease deepened with Perversion, and Sellout I think on the highlight. =]

That's all for today...

Laterz and love,

D.B.

Haircutt

I got a hair cuttt.

I tried another polish from that kit and it lasted me about five minutes and looks awful so I'm not going to swatch or post it. I guess it was just that colour.

Laters and love,

D.B.

A Note About Pictures *FOTD*

So, my FOTD inclues a bit of a purple scheme. With purple lid and sparkling silver crease, and a bit of a purple gloss. I think it is a Jade eyeshadow palette, a moderate drugstore brand. Foundation is Neutrogena Liquid--I'm not sure what it is, but it's oil free and promotes health, and the powder is Neutrogena as well--a powder I swear by, because it gives me a pretty flawless finish in real life /and/ heals blemishes.

Speaking of blemishes. I don't like putting pictures up, because I think it scares people. Really, who wants to look at /that/? The reality is, is that I'm fifteen years old. I have acne, and I know that most people in their teens and twenties and even thirties can be affected by it as well. Blemishes can completely destroy ones life. Checking your face every thirty minutes to make sure you're concealed, it can lead to depression. Depression can lead to suicide. This is Depression Awareness Month, and it's good to support depression. Lots of people are affected by depression, and most don't think it's a big enough problem to talk to anyone about it. Personal appearance can lead to depression. I don't know about any of you, but when I see gurus like Michelle Phan--who is absolutely incredible--anyone's skin can look terrible. The gurus seem flawless. Celebrities seem flawless. And looking at these pictures can make you feel bad.

I'm getting better, really, at..not worrying too much about what others think. Finding humility. And my skin isn't /that/ bad, really. I have a few breakouts on my cheeks and a few whiteheads every now and then, but it's really during my special time of the month. Like seriously, there's this ten day period of every month where I'm terrible, like now. It doesn't just look bad, it hurts. And it makes me feel depressed and terrible all day. The truth, really--it doesn't matter, it really doesn't. And three years ago I would have been fine not wearing makeup, I didn't care at all what anybody thought--and my friends, sometimes I can't stand because they hate makeup, but you know, I've come to realise that they're better than I am, that they have the mental attitude that I think everyone needs, to not worry about appearance. That someone should love you because of who you are, not what you look like. And I'm trying to get more towards that goal. I've stopped carrying makeup with me wherever I go. It's like a temptation--if I have a mirror, I'm going to make sure I look okay. I think I look bloody brilliant, and when I take a picture it looks terrible! But I mean, I am what I am. And really, nobody is going to see that blackhead from five feet away, unless you completely pack it down with concealer and make a big notice out of it, or spend ten minutes every class period powdering yourself. That just..I don't know, it looks stuck up and arrogant to be so obsessed with your appearance in a place where you should really just let it go and be yourself.

Anyways, sorry that was a big long rant.

Love,

D.b.